I think I despite myself enough for both of us, I just can’t do it better.

I hope to know how to manage this situation or to see things clearly but I’m not able. This always hurts me but I never wanted to hurt you. I’m sorry.

Stupid me.

I went to bed yesterday wishing to wake up today being a different person but it hasn’t worked.
*too sick of myself* Please, change for me.

I want to believe that when you have a huge lack of something the world must compensate you in another way.
Then, I would like to be addicted to work. I need to have my mind busy and do something useful but no, I have no big talent, I don’t publish anything, I don’t sell paintings… I’m a good artist for nothing. Maybe I just chosed the wrong life.

I’d need to know it before it was to late. So please, send me a sing or something.

16.15  in Kiel again

This was my favourite place from Prague, the Jewish Cementery.
I hope the next time I visit that place you will be there too.

19.21 starts the trip – 14.06 hours to arrive to Prague by train. Long trip…

I think I’m strong but I don’t like to feel that always, if it is not for me, the boat stinks. I would like to have at least sometimes someone to rely on because it this is exhauting.

I like to watch them running through the gravestones or climbing in the trees. This place has something magic.

I’ve sleeping watching the cementery trees swaying through my window but there was no stars in the sky. Anyway, is a beautiful view to fall asleep.

I collected the keys of my new flat yesterday and it is soooo cute! I love it so much and I’m dying to move in as soon as possible. My current dorm is nice too and very big but it is so empty so the new one will feel more like a home.

It also has beautiful views to the cementery and it is very near to the train station so it is perfect to travel anytime!

~ I don’t know what I’m going to do when all of this get to end and I will have to go back to Spain, to the lack of freedom, to my little room full of trash, to the worries… Kiel is so far of everything, it is pure selfishness but I would like to live here forever, far away like in a fairy tale (but not far from you).

ok, I understand it.